Standing against reason.

The ability to reason is perhaps God's greatest gift to mankind. A steel blade, unrivalled, that slices apart everything deceitful to us, unless the source of misguidance lies in us, or something more compelling stands in it's way.

We have an irrepressible propensity to rationalize; an innate and subliminal thought process. We call it 'finding reasons'. It is a simple cause-effect function instilled in us. Nothing wrong, perfectly fine and constructive at that.

Problem arises when we try to rationalize the irrational. You try to rationalize love. You try so damn hard to give yourself reasons why you love someone, or why you like someone. And you live your love life as if you are bound by some doctrine handed down by your ancestors. How dogmatic. And how idiotic. Finding a reason to love or not love someone, I call that 'finding excuses'.

Some things are meant to be. Irrational. Not within the domains of your cause-effect function. You might still find an answer when you attempt working it out. Irrational answers. Because you know that deep inside, past your sphere of human reasoning, you think and feel differently; that thing inside is immune to the onslaught of human reason. Because you are living it. Compelling, tougher than your reasons. And you become it.

Unless you give up. On yourself.

Some term it as 'waking up'. I can't find a word for it. I was never asleep.