Saturday, August 30, 2008

Life, The lack of

Life is not reading hundreds of pages of reading materials on Islam, not drawing macroeconomics models, not practicing accounting and neither is it drawing business process diagrams.

Since I only seem to have time for such activities, I shall hereby declare that I have no life.

I'm better off dead. At least I have a chance of claiming insurance payouts and being richer than I am.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Stoned mirror.

Tossed a stone. No, threw. With all the anger and frutration, at a mirror.
Shattered, the image. Nothing left but regret.

Regret? Not sure about that.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Essays are fun.

I'm not kidding. Somehow, it seems that writing essays has been quite a fun activity. Despite my whinings about the massive volume of assigments and tutorial to complete, I quite enjoy searching through articles and reading about the stuff I'm writing about. Maybe its because what I am writing isn't at all professional and from an academic point of view, pretty amateurish, but I honestly have enjoyed my essays so far. Quite a challenge under some circumstances, but it's all part of school I guess.

Anyways, school's been pretty fine for now, although it already seems to be a tad tougher than the previous semestr. Okay, nt just a little, quite a significant bit. Could be the subject combination or something, but I guess I can still cope. Not that I'm totally stretched out to my maximum now. Good news for now I guess.

And I'm pretty lost over my subjects for the years ahead after I learnt that I could actually do an Econs/Finance combination as supposed to the Accounting/Finance I thought I could only do to get a double major. And yes, accounting can be a real pain in the rear. Maybe I'm over-reacting, but I guess I'll know by end-sem. Maybe then I can finally decide on my subjects next year.

I almost got carried away. Lecture time.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

More than a week ago.

It's been more than a week since I last posted something here. Testament to my loss in interesting in blogging. Not that nothing has been happening, but I really have not sat down to write it all.

Well, there quite alot of thoughts running through my brain these days, and alot of which I would have blogged about in the past. But a really tight schedule coupled with loads of distractions and a general loss in interest to blog has led to this barren blog.

I hope things would change. Not that I have much readers anyway, but just to keep this habit I used to have.

Maybe the supposed time I have for myself hasn't been of much use lately. Pretty sure I need more quality time for myself, and that should actually mean that it's time I actively set aside time for myself and not be so preoccupied with wasting time.

Wow. I can even be too lazy to spend time on myself. Beat that.

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Power and nothingness.

Those who have nothing have nothing to lose. Those with everything have everything to lose.

Probably heard something similar to that well over a million times, but that statement never fails to amaze me.

The simplicity that really isn't - simply because power comes from nothingness.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Handphone popcorn.

I was just asking if anyone finally produced concrete evidence that the use of handphons really causes cancer, when I came across this:

Handphone Popcorn

Okay, but I'm sill not convinced my phone can give me a tumour.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Staying put?

I think I have really lost my interest in blogging. I no longer jump at ideas and start planning blogposts in thin air. It has become quite a chore as I nag at myself to keep an active blog, for the one or two readers who might just pop by to take a look.

Maybe it all requires a fresh start, and perhaps even proper planning before setting another site up, to at least fix a direction or theme of sorts. This blog has become far too distracting, and the topics are a little too direction-less. Not that I regret writing here or any of the posts I have written, but it honestly is becoming a little too lacking of a focal point. Blur.

But it does ache within me whenever I think of startin all over again. I probably see it as quite a waste to have to restart and treat all my previous posts as never before written. Despite tonnes of useless junk I might have posted here, thre are some posts that really are a part of me, or have become part of me as I write them. Much of my thought process or even perception of things have changed througout the period of writing in this blog.

That seems to me to be the only reason why I am still writing here. Not that I like a messy blog with no theme or direction, but because it is this mess that reflects a change, and reminds me of quite a lot of events. Then I guess I should just stick to what I am doing in terms of writing.

Why throw the past away when others struggle to keep it all?

Sunday, August 3, 2008

A week past.

It's been a week since school started. A really relaxing week considering I only have 2 days of lessons since tutorials have not started. Everything seems fine for now, except that I have to get down to searching for my group partners. That would probably be the toughest thing to do considering I would have to work with the group for two assignments.

Gah, I hope that goes well. Don't want to suffer with an incompetent group or one that cannot function properly.

Friday, August 1, 2008

Lazy mind.

It has been about a week since I last even visited blogger, or even looked at my blog. Been really caught up with other stuff in life, and I hardly have time to blog - I know, it's really sounding more like one of those other pathetic excuses to not do stuff.

It has become more obvious to me that keeping an active blog is not just about pure determiation, it really requires more than just nagging yourself to get online to type a couple of words. Even if you force yourself to get to your blogsite, chances are you end up staring at an empty box for a long time, not kowing what to write about at all. I don't know if "passion" is the all-important factor, but perhaps interest is really important if you wanted to have an active blog.

1 post a week really seems pathetic, but until I get myself back into the mood to write, I will have to cut down on the frequency of my posts. Oh well.