Apologies.

In the slightest hopes that you may one day pass by this place, I offer my sincerest apology. Apologies, rather, for a list: impatience, immaturity, imperfection.

I no longer have the courage to bring this up because I honestly don't know when's the right time. And ultimately, even if I became enlightened, wiser, smarter, less imperfect, it does not mean anything unless everything else falls in place. Perhaps the chances of it working out naturally is slim, but anything I want to do now has to be thought through umpteen times. I admit it's tiring, but I am doing it for a reason.

Maybe not a remotely viable reason, but just a hope. But still something, nonetheless.